So, I do a lot of reading. A lot of study. I believe strongly in continuing education. Keep learning stuff, they say. And I do. And, sometimes, I have one of those “aha moments!” Sometimes it’s really amazing. Like recently, after all these years, decades of life. Having one of those moments that puts all those pieces of the puzzle (of life) together. Wow.
Reading a book recently I had an epiphany. I guess you could say. It suddenly hit me that I am an intuitive, one of those persons that have more than the usual five senses that people have. One of those people that have a “sixth sense.” When I read that and reflected on that thought, it made sudden sense. My whole life has been an experience of being an intuitive (or some say a psychic, but I prefer the term intuitive). I’ve always had a “sixth sense,” as I see it.
No wonder I have had such a tendency to go to the depressed state in the past. No wonder I was so sensitive, always, to the people I was around, picking up their auras, energies and feelings and intensions. I’ve been more sensitive than others, I now realize. And now, recently, I have been working on handling that situation. I realize that I have to work on taking better care of myself and being aware of the energies and people that are around me. Especially with the world/political situation as it currently is. It can easily put me in a very bad state. I see and experience so many people I know being in a cultlike state of rigid, mean, hateful state of mind. And I abhor hate and evil.
Looking back, I can see I have been a very sensitive person all my life. I have always been sensitive to the environment and people around me. I wish I had been more aware of this situation earlier. Oh, well, at least now I am aware. I just very easily pick up on the emotions and feeling and thoughts of people around me. And sometimes, it ain’t pretty. Very tempting to fall into, get sucked into, deep depression and anxiety. And I know that I can’t let myself go there, no matter what. And to keep from going there takes a lot, I mean a lot, of work.
So, what sort of work can help me avoid losing it these days, with the world, and this country especially, going to pieces? Well, I turn to my spiritual life, I guess you could say. There has to be something more than this visible, material, physical world of seeming chaos and hate. As a student of history, I am amazed how people have lived through the horrible times we read about in studying history. And I mean horrible. A deep study of history reveals much more horribleness than the superficial study of history most of us have been exposed to in school.
So, spirituality is very important to me now. Superficial positive thinking or self-improvement or blind adherence to religion does not do it for me. Been there, done that. Boy, have I been there and done that. Perhaps it helped at times and was better than really going off the deep end and doing something regrettable or unredeemable (i.e. suicide or homicide, etc.). But I need something more than positive thinking and man’s religious structure. Not that religion is bad. I certainly acknowledge the good aspects of religion but also acknowledge the bad aspects of religion.
So, there’s good in religion. There’s good in sound philosophy also, I believe. And in good psychology. If you’ve read my previous blogs, you have probably picked up on my references to the spiritual life. I believe a spiritual life is important in getting through this life in a successful, happy way. And, as I see it, a spiritual path is a very individual path. No one can really provide the way, the truth for you. They can assist. They can teach. But you must find your way, as I see it.
All I can say is, don’t let the “world” dictate its chaotic message to you. Find your way. Be aware of your surroundings in a “spiritual” sense. Find the “something,” the good in the world, the good in life. It is there I absolutely believe. I am comfortable in calling it God. But, as many sages say, you can’t really name it or define it. Just let it be. Find it. If you find it or have found it, I say “live it!”
Wally